Saturday, December 25, 2010

Personal Journal-5

Midnight had pasted twenty minutes ago and it’s now officially Christmas and yet I don’t feel any sense of the holiday spirit wash over me. In fact for the last couple of weeks I’ve been in a state of depression and now this depression has sifted to lackadaisical. The holiday’s have always left me feeling melancholy, but this year it’s become a lot more dreary for me. Most of it has to do with the lack of finding a new job, and the pressures I’m getting in find a job hasn’t helped my state of mind either. This whole year hasn’t been in what I call the best of times. So much crap that’s transpired this year most of it all leading up to nothing. I can’t wait to say my so longs to this carptactular year.

Another thing that’s made me so blue is that I had my hopes up in attending the Christmas eve service at my church today. I went last year and it was great I was actually happy on Christmas for once. Well what happened this year was that a friend of my (who’d went with me last year) was unable couldn’t go because she was spending Christmas with her mother. I asked two people if they wanted to go, and I pretty much got the same story they all had something to do. Some good fortune did come my way on Tuesday when I got a message on my facebook page from this couple I meet at the church. The two were planning on attending the service and as luck would have it they were willing to give me a left. Now I had something to look forward to for Christmas Eve. When the day finally arrived I had pretty much everything ready and I was so psyched to go. Then I got a call from one of them telling me that they won’t be able to attend the service. Now I’m back to where I started, back to my depressive state, holiday’s blow.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Job Hunt Journal-3

Nothing new to post about on the job hunt. Decided it be best to take a brief hiatus till the holidays are over. Then start again in the new year.

Personal Journal-4

Woke up way to early this morning to find another rainy day to greet me. Also woke to early to deal with my DSL connection it’s really frustrating me. Now I finally got it to work properly unfortunately it’s running slower then molasses when connecting.  Well the rainy weather won’t last forever. Till then I’ll just be content with reading my novels as a source of entertainment.

Personal Journal-3

Yesterday I decide to get into the habit of jolting down my postings on my word processer incase I should run into the same problems in the future with my DSL connection as I’m currently having right now. That way I could air out what’s ever on my mind at that exact moment and save till later when I get a much better connection. That way I don’t have to spend so much time staring at my blog racking my brains out just trying to figure out what to post. It’s also a great way for me to make an attempt to organize my idiot nonsense thoughts.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Job Hunt Journal

It’s been four days since my last posting and there’s nothing new with the job situation. I filled out two more job apps. Online. I wanted to spend the whole day filling out more job apps. but my internet connection was causing me problems. So I’m spending this whole day catching on lost time. I’ve even had to cancel out on visiting my friend who’s working on the first day of his new job at starsbucks. That kind brings up something that happened on Friday. Got a call from a friend that day to tell some up setting news he got fired from his job earlier that day. This was his first official paying job he’s ever had, and he’s only been working there for barely a month. He would often complain about the manger and some of the co-workers giving him a hard time at some point he wanted to quite, but decided to stay on. I don’t know what pissed him off the most the fact that he got fired from his job or how who ever fired him went about it. From what I gather it was done so unprofessionally they didn’t bother to notify in advance him. They just fired him right then and there, in an off handed manner. How tacky is that. Now he’s back to square one looking for another job. Personally I think he should of quite while he had the chance.

Personal Journal-2


Greeting it’s been three days since my last posting which couldn’t be helped.  The rainy weather has caused some problems with my internet connection make it difficult to establish a connection, and when I did get a connection it was painfully slow to upload anything especially my facebook page. My DSL is slow as it is on normal days, but I noticed during dramatic weather changes my connection is some how much slower, for example I had the same problems during the summer. Especially during the really hot periods, and now I’m having the same kind of problems with the cold rainy weather. I don’t know why that is?  Ever since I bought my computer five years ago I’ve wanted so badly to get a home internet connection set up. Now after eight months of endless internet access I can say that I’m kind of disappointed in the quality of the service that I’m getting from provider, or it could be just the old of the phone wiring in this crap shack of apt. house that the cause of my internet woes.
Either way I was so annoyed with my internet that i disconnected and spent the weekend web free just doing nothing, but reading and playing my R.T.S. Games it took me awhile to get use to the of idea of no internet, I didn’t realize I’ve become so addicted to it. Today I’m spending this whole Monday locking my self up in my nice warm room drinking some hot tea listening to the sound of the falling rain as it pours down heavily. All the while I’m on the internet catching up on my e-mails and whatever I missed out.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Personal Journal 12-16-10

Few things of note happen today. Hang out with an old friend of mine her name is Jen. This is the same person i mention on my job journal who got hired to that vocational school in Inglewood. So she came by picked me up and headed towards a Starbucks in the city of Bell. I not much of a Starbucks kind of a person, but for some reason I this location better then some other I've been. Even thought this place is a little more smaller then other locations i've visited, but theirs just some thing about that place that's so cozy and clean, way cleaner then the in my neighborhood. So Jen and I head there down and hang out for an two hours. We mostly spent that small pocket of time we had together talking. Mostly catching up on whats been going in our lives and mainly venting out our frustrations on family members over cups of tea. Wish we had more time to dish, but she had places to go. Ah well I guess next time.